June 2010
41 posts
The Good, The Bad and The Dairy.
The Good, rationalizing eating a tub of blackberry ice cream to ease the daggers that seem to have recently taken up residence in the back of your throat.
The Bad, realizing that dairy is horrible for sore throats and end up more miserable than when you started.
“He who conquers others is mighty. He who conquers himself is almighty”
– I wrote this on May 26th, 2010. Its a pretty well known Al-Anon quote. I felt it was appropriate for a 30 day hiatus because it was exactly what I aimed to achieve. Control.
Today I drank. About three glasses of wine and two beers. Over the course of 5 hours. Decent. Slow.
I ended up tired. Thats...
You know what I forgot?
The biggest thing that alcohol does to you is make you tired. Fucking…. gnite.
Transforming
I have reached a point where I prefer to ride around alone on my bike, climbing hills, getting sweaty and blasting hardcore music rather than hang out at bars. Is this the sobriety talking or what?
Day 28 of 30
I cannot believe that Thursday will be the 30 day mark. The big question is, whats next? Do I slip back into the lifestyle or do I continue sober or do I try to find an equilibrium?
Equilibriums are hard because there is no perfect world. I will say “Sure just this one drink.” “Oh whats another one more.” and next thing you know its 5am, Im eating nachos and thinking...
Everytime Bon Iver sings "who will love you, who...
I get a little teary eyed. To this day. Fuck that song.
Day 21 of 30
The other night I was told by a bartender of a bar I frequent a lot that I looked really good. Healthy. We were discussing sobriety and time off. Hes done 45 days or so before. But it kind of weirded me out, when he said I looked good and healthy. Did I look unhealthy?
Three weeks in, I do not feel healthier. In fact, my headaches are getting worse. Maybe thats withdrawal. Maybe its because I...
Someone mentioned grits
And I responded with this mess of a message.
Grits are my favorite. I used to live in the South in Atlanta where I worked at a greasy spoon diner that was famous for being one of the only 24 hour diners in the city. It rolled with drunks smoking and eating grits and collard greens about 2am. It had been there since the 50s.
One day, it was the 4th of July, and in protest to working that...
Party by The D4
I have recently rediscovered this...
Them Kids by Sam Roberts
“I wanna live in...
Inside of Love by Nada Surf
Just came on Pandora. I wish I had it on this computer so I could share it with you.
Day 12 of 30 - Sobriety Reflections
I find it very easy to stay sober in social situations. But I don’t feel that its helping me gain a better perspective about my emotions and how I want to deal with the things that have happened this year.
When turning down an offer for a beer or responding “arnold palmer” to “what are you drinking”, I keep getting a twisted face with the question “What?...
So
nashvilleneedsmoremetaphors:
I’m considering locking the trigger on this belt sander and clamping it to my left hip. That’s how badly I want to scratch this chigger bite. Might be a Tad extreme…but not so extreme to have a guitar player named Nuno. Yeah…only a select few of you will get that, and even fewer will find it funny. ‘Salright. I’ve been up since five this morning. Tmi? Extreme tmi?...
